Things Fall Apart
Well, we’re nearing day 30 of quarantine and I don’t know about you but it’s been a roller coaster of emotions. Unfortunately several people I know have contracted COVID-19 One of my favorite uncles, who is not only a Pastor but 80 something years old, was admitted to ICU. I nearly lost it when I got that call. However, I remembered who had the final say. I can’t speak for anyone else but my faith has been carrying me through. Most have fully recovered but a few succumbed to the virus. I decided to take mini-break from social media last week. Even though as an entrepreneur it’s necessary to engage frequently online, I Could Not! I think the combination of so many deaths and my own health challenges drained me. I decided not to look at anything Pandemic related. No news, no alerts, no texts. I didn’t even watch Pandemic themed movies! Lol. It was necessary.
I’ve found that, when living away from your support system, you have to create internal check-ins. The great thing about quarantine time is that I wasn’t expected to go anywhere. Wooohoo, FREEDOM!!
I spent the week catching up on shows I’ve missed. Let me say The Morning Show on Apple TV was quite entertaining! I re-watched all the Marvel movies in sequential order. It was apparent that I fell in sleep at the theater for most of them. I read books that were well overdue. Gabrielle Unions’ We’re Gonna Need More Wine, was a good read but surprisingly, I couldn’t relate. Not Gabby’s fault, I just realized that I was a super conservative teen. My faith was certainly my saving grace. That’s a story for another day.
I experimented with a few recipes. Grilled pork chops anyone? I’m training to run my first 5k in 10 years. Just when I got down to a 10-minute mile…..I sprained my ankle pretty bad, here’s to the Flirty Forties! I spent a blissful afternoon playing with a friends’ niece. We colored, marker challenge is an actual thing. Barbie has a gang of shows on Netflix. And we had a build-a-thon with her blocks. There was a pillow fight and she helped me make dinner. A great distraction from an otherwise emotionally draining week. Ila definitely cheered me up!
The point of this all is to say it’s okay if you have a moment of anxiousness. These are heightened emotional times. Do what you need to do in order to feel emotionally secure. Shoot I spent an entire day meditating and listening to old Bishop G.E. Patterson messages, because they were from a time when my Dad, Uncle and Grandmother were still alive. It gave me some comfort. Right now we need all the comfort we can get.
I don’t know when things are going to go back to normal. Honestly, we’re in the process of defining a “New Normal”. In the meantime here’s my plan for anytime things feel overwhelming.
- Allow yourself grace to process.
- Step away from news outlet
- Turn off all alerts
- Log off the internet
- Read a book
Be patient with yourself love.
Embrace the Journey,